Today is a school trip 2 days 1 night. In the bus, i sit alone in front. i have prepared myself that i would be like this, so i bring my favorite novel A Little Princess. i read it a thousand time. i finished reading the book. half of the trip, just looking out at the window.
everybody are talking, playing and singing.some are teasing each other. I noticed that a girl from my class, her name is Sasha was looking at me. when we face each other, she smiled. But i smiled back awkwardly and continue staring out of the window.
I know that my behaviour is wierd, i never been like this in elementary school. I’m just not ready to face different people.
We finally arrived. I’m searching for Rissa in her bus. She looked very sleepy.
"been sleeping all the way?" ask me.
"no… it’s the opposite of that….they’ve been teasing me and kicking my seat. I’m very tired".
"hang in there Ris, you only got 2 year".
We gether in our group. I am in group 3. We all go to the villa.
In there, some of the group are in the livving room, auditorium in 2nd floor, terrace, and a nice bedroom. wierdly, the group who got the bed room are the popular cliques.
I’m very unfortunate. My group got the terrace in the east.
"NO WAY I’M SLEEPING HERE!" shout a girl named Senia.
"we’re sleeping outside… this sucks"said Sasha.
"and the worst part, the populars are next door, in their god damn bed" said Senia. She looked at the bedroom."look, they’re laughing at us".
"let’s just ask them to share, we can move this… mattress in" said the asian girl named Fina.
"try won’t hurt right?" said Sasha "how about you, Silvy?".
"i don’t know…." said me.
We planned to ask them later. I tried to find Rissa, but i coudn’t find her.
I intend to go upsatairs. I saw Nina, my elementary BF. It’s been a while i don’t greet her. She has many friends. She saw me and approached.
"Hey Sil, how’re you?" asked her.
"where do you sleep?"
"oh no…. hey, we still have four unused mattress up here, you wanna move in?"
"really?! … is that okay?"
"sure yeah, c’mon"
"your the best!" i hug her happily. Nina is always nice, i know why she has many friends.
We rushed to the terrace to pick up my bag. Sasha, Fina, and Senia are talking there”.
"hi Nina, Silvy" said Sasha.
"heyya" said Nina. She took my suitcase and i take my bagpack.
"where are you going, Silvy?"
”.. the 2nd floor”.
"we still have 3 bed left, wanna join?"added Nina.
"no, thanks. we want to approach the populars".
"oh well, bye".
Nina is very amazing. she can talk to them casually. She’s really prepared.
we put down my bags on my matt next to Nina’s. I was very happy. I think this trip isn’t so bad.
I have been really quiet when i first came to junior high. i was really sad that everybody acts like i’m not there…. but they are really nice of how they talk especially the populars. they treated me like an innocent girl. i was pleased that nobody’s bullying me. but i’m getting lonely that i don’t have a single friend in class… the teachers often gave us a group work… i was the one that got left out. I’m being spared to random group everyday. this position of mine is confusing…. i am happy that everybody are so nice to me but in other hand, they never hang around me for simple talks…. i have been in group work with the populars a couple of time. they are a bit friendly to talk, but awkwardly i wasn’t there…i never feel comfortable..
I have been thinking that i have the potencial to be popular but, i was to shy. i regret everything that i never do.
At lunch, i always eat in the emergency staircase…
One day, i saw a girl sits alone in that staircase. i hasitate to talk to her. but than myself sit beside her and talk “hey, are you lonely too? what class are you from?”.
Her face looked so happy. but than i saw on her eyes. one of it is blind. she’s disability. “yeah…. i’m in the accelaration class…..you know the only two years education” said her. her name was Rissa. since then, we become friends.
She tells me her life in class. everybody hates (or rather be jealous) about that she is the top rank. they say she is annoying. when we walk on the hall, some of my classmates and their friends, that i don’t know, greeted me. i smiled at them. but when they look at Rissa, they look like they want to kill her…
i used to have a bad score in biology. i never get anything from the book into my brain. everytime i read it again, and again. i was like “what the hell is this?!” it’s so frustrating.
and one day, i have to study for the exam, about plant movement. my textbook have a bad picture. i don’t get it at all. so i googled and found dozens of them. i was crying happy, and open lots of related webpages. i also watched a video of it in youtube.
after the exam, it feels like the new me has reborn. i passed my exam! i got A yeah! and than i tought to myself “thanks god, i was born where internet existed”. :D
Currently i am addicted to final fantasy. I want to follow every story about final fantasy xD i loved them! games and movies! :). But i am a little confused about the storyline, i mean, sometimes i don’t get it…. well but i still love it, i like final fantasy VII, VIII,IX,X,XI,XII,XIII, and XIV….. I have not seen it all, exept the VII, but hopefully I like it all. that is all for now. :)
Last night I realized something fascinating about myself. As I sat at my iMac having a Google Hangout with Sam working on turning a joke into a Tumblr post, I realized I love the combination of technology and comedy.
Since I can remember I’ve wanted to make people laugh. I’m obsessed with it. I’ve also always loved technology and I spent 3 years working for Apple, maybe the biggest technology company in history. I am just now realizing how much technology and comedy have in common.
Comedy and Technology are essentially about the same thing. They are both about solving a problem. Comedy is about solving the specific problem of how to make somebody laugh. Language is the main tool we use. We work to put words together in such a way that they surprise the audience.
Tumblr is the technology I use to solve the problem of not being able to reach an audience. Tumblr has given me the ability to reach numbers of people that I never could on a live stage.
For a long time I thought my path was supposed to be the typical path of a stand up comedian who performs live shows until he catches a break and gets into television or movies.
But last night, as I worked on creating a post that exploits the specific technology of the Tumblr photoset, I realized that maybe I was always meant to be an “Internet comedian.” Maybe using technology to create, publish, and share my humor is the path I was always meant to take.
On one hand, it is hard to compete with the immediate feedback and the rush you get when you make a live audience laugh. On the other hand, I’ve never performed for 20,000 people, but jokes I’ve made on Tumblr have been viewed and “liked” by that many people.
I’ve always loved comedy because it feels like I’m cracking some sort of code. You start with a premise for a joke. It’s a good start, but it’s not funny yet. Then you take what you words and actions and find a way to apply them in order to achieve the maximum result.
Last night I realized Sam and I were doing that exact same thing, only with a Tumblr photoset. And when the post was created and it was exactly what we hoped it would be, it was one of the most satisfying feelings I’ve ever had.